Memories

Well, here I sit listening to my new Matchbox 20 CD and reminiscing about life in general. All of my life I can honestly say I have related songs to each phase of my life. I am taken back to another place entirely when I hear songs from my past that made me who I was back then. I used to submerse myself in music to forget about what was going on around me and make believe I was somone else! I could just put my earphones on and forget the world entirely and who I was in it!

The songs on this CD are bittersweet! I love the music, but it brings back memories of a time I don't wish to recall. A time of late night parties and people coming in and out of the house who I didn't know who they were half the time. Being a child and seeing the things and going through the things I went through are hard to think about and I don't do so often.

Well anyways,

I went to see my Grandfather tonight and it pains me so much to see him. It is almost as though I am seeing him deteriate right in front of me. A man who used to look so strong and healthy and able is now looking so pale and feeble. He was diagnosed with testicular cancer about 6 months ago and is having a really rough time with it. It is a very fast growing cancer and the only treatment available for it is Chemotherapy. He had a cat scan last week and we are currently awaiting the results on that so we know how the progress is going. I just love him so much I don't know how to react when i am with him. I ask him how he is, but I wish I could just pretend like nothing is happening, and everything is alright. he gave me a lamp tonight that used to be my mothers when she was a child, and I just kept thinking that he knows his time may be limited and is trying to get rid of some things. I hate that! He is a great man and I will pray for him daily until he is better!

I guess that is just something I had to get off my chest there.........:) But, other than that all is great! I got a new job, and I will be starting there in another week. EXCITED as ever to start something new and to get a new chapter going!

Alright, later, I'm having a hard time keeping my thoughts straight.......:)

Noooooooo!!!!!

So anyways, It is cold and well, cold this morning and I definately don't want to get out of the bed. The covers are so nice and toasty over my skin, and I don't want to go to work and I don't want to go to school. I am almost absolutely certain I wouldn't have gone to school today had I not had a test in one of my classes. It would have been I'm sick day from work and school, but as it was, I got my lazy butt out of bed and drug it off to the unknown. I am glad that I decided to venture out today though, because it was actually a really good day. I had a good time at school, no matter how much I want to bitch and moan about it, and It was a fairly good day at work after some people left anyways.

I work at a bank, and after we balance for the day business usually slacks off a bit. So, I always let 2 of the 4 of us go home. Well, it was me and Allison today and we like to talked each others ears off!! It was great! Nothing like a couple of gals talking about everything from serious to definately not serious. Well, I don't like to gossip about people, but PLEASE PEOPLE.......Sometimes I HATE working with women. I mean, yeah, I am one, but how bitchy do you have to be every single day of your ever lovin life!?? I walk into work this morning to drop off the keys to the ATM machines like every other morning and I say HEYYYY....like always, and everyone else reciprocates except for 1! Like always, she doesn't know how to be nice and respectful, so I didn't exactly think anything about it except that I hoped she was in a better mood by the time I got there that evening. Wellllll, low and behold, what would ya know but she wasn't. I got there and she didn't say a word to me, so being the bitch that I can be I didn't say anything to her either! I mean, why should I always be the one to initiate here. So, I don't care, and I go about my day talking and laughing with the other girls. Finally I was like, "What's wrong with ya, are you alright today?" I say this to her twice within the hour, and she doesn't talk so that's enough for me and my conscious. Well, a little later we get to balancing and I balanced to the penny, but Allison didn't. So that meant that the other two girls would probably be there until 2:30 and not get out early like they normally do. She get's all buttheaded and starts slamming stuff around. At first I didn't know it was on purpose until she slammed down coin trays and stuff, but then I turned around and was like "Whao, who is slamming stuff around?" Nobody said anything and they wouldn't own up to it, so I was like "Stop with the slamming around!" I AM NOT THE MOTHER OF ANYONE! I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO PUT UP WITH THIS FOOLISHNESS! Well, I was gonna call her tonight and be like, listen! If you want a transfer go, but don't keep making yourself and us miserable becuase you are unhappy with the way things are going with your life! And that's all I have to say about that!

Well, one exciting thing is Allison and I got a LIBRARY CARD today. We felt a little funny, but we read a lot and we decided we were tired of buying all those books and only reading them one time. So, hello, why isn't the library a good idea?? I got Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister, by Gregory McGuire. I read "Wicked" about a month ago and it was really good so I hope this one is too! I'm am totally psyched! Well, I don't know what else to rant about right now, that pretty much gets it off of my chest. THANX FOR LISTENIN. If anyone has any good fantasy book ideas shout out to me!

later all

mwah

Has it been a long time or what???

Well, it certainly has been a long time hasn't it?? I know that nobody reads this anymore since I haven't had an update since like, April or something. Well, anyways, whoever stumbles across this random posting I haven't really been up to much lately. It seems like all I ever get done is working or going to school, and that gets old real quick. This weekend however I got in some major North Carolina time!! It was a good time, hanging with old friends, and Shanes' family. We went to one of his cousins wedding. She was so pretty, but the wedding was alright. Let's start from the beginning.

Anyone who knows me and Shane knows that we have this dog, right. Well, bear is this little tiny dog with long hair that just KNOWS he is a massive beast. He chases dogs away from the safety of the inside couch, and he humps Zoe from Sesame Street until his leg starts hurting. Well, anyways, we had to find someone to keep him for a couple of days while we were out of town. So I asked my co-worker Allison if she would mind and she said of course not. So, the first plans of the afternoon were that we were going to leave the house at 7 a.m. and follow his parents down that way (because we had no idea where we were going), but as time progressed Shane decided that he didn't need to follow anyone, we could handle it ourselves. So, I wake up at 7:30 that morning and get up take a shower yadda yadda, while he is still lazing around. So I was like, Shane, we need to leave earlier than 10 or so, because we have to drop bear off go by my house get something to eat get gas and so on and so forth! I mean come on people!!! The wedding started at 4 o'clock and we didn't know where, plus it is a 4 hour drive to get there! Well, anyways, he wanted to wait around because Virginia Tech has some new sports channel or something and he wanted to see it, but lo and behold!!! No VT at 10 o'clock. So there we are late anyways, and the stupid show didn't even come on! Well, so after that we finally get a move on after we located the keys, loaded up bears luggage along with our own, and set out on our treck to Hendersonville right outside of Ashville.

We get in the car with high spirits and anxious to see everyone whom we haven't seen in forever. This weekend was a sensitive weekend for everyone anyways, because it is the weekend anniversary that Shanes' grandmother passed away last year. So here we go! Well, everything progresses fine until we get to Ashville, and that's where we get lost. We know we are supposed to be going to Hendersonville, but we don't know what road to get on to get there. So we drive around Ashville 3 times, because the cell phone keeps going out and his dad doesn't know what to tell us either! So, in the meantime we are cruising along I'm steaming out the ears and he runs over this bolt that just comes out of nowhere. This was no ordinary bolt either! You know how sometimes when you are doing something and it just starts going in slow motion when something bad is about to occur and you KNOW that you can't do a damn thing about it? Well, that was about that. So it goes BANGGGGGGG.....and I'm just sure we have a flat tire! I mean that bolt was like one of those bolts you would see holding up a ferris wheel or something. Well, we keep driving around and nothing happens. Great! Well, we finally get to Hendersonville and get on the right track all the while his dad is saying we won't make it to the wedding at least we will make it to the reception. After much ado we make it. LATE as usual, but hey, apparantly so was the bride, so you can't go wrong there. We meet up with our party and alls well that ends well.

It was a good time though!
The wedding was beautiful Debbie, Congratulations Sabrina and Patrick, and luv to all the family who will never see this! :)

I have tons more, but if I spill it now this blog will be 100 miles long and nobody will read it. Plus, I probably won't have anything else to talk about for another 5 months! Haha....

lata
mwah

Bored to Death!!!!!!!

So, here I sit at the computer once again for the eightieth time today. The first time I had every intention of doing a report that needs to be done, but I went shopping instead. The second time I sat down to do the same and did the same!! Lol, it's a never ending process, I am telling ya now. However, new revelations in my life are at the minimal. I am going to look into buying a trailor tomorrow. As some of you know my uncle got married last weekend, and I am expected to be moving in with him and his new wife along with their 6 KIDS sometime after next week. I don't really want this to happen though, so I have been looking into the various options available to me. I looked into trailors before, but couldn't really find anything worth looking into. Nothing nice. Call me spoiled if you must, but I've never lived in a mobile home before and I want a nice one if I am going to have to live in one. So, being a non-smoker and knowing the damage smoking can do to a house or mobile home, I have looked incessantly for one that is tar free! The problem with this is, Southern West Virginia could possibly be the capitol for smokers! There is like 1 non smoker to 1 billion smokers around here. Well, anyways, I have a friend and her husband just returned from overseas and they are looking to move into a doublewide. So, they want 8 grand for the single that they live in now. Non smokers, 3 bedrooms 2 bath. Sounds good to me, so we'll see how that goes down after tomorrow.

Nothing new at school really. Just a little here and there and a girl named Andrea that wants to always share things with me that I reallllllly don't care to know! Like about how her boyfriend is her ex-boyfriends suitemate and yadda yadda yadda about her sex life. (Andrea, I DON'T CARE!!)

Well, disappointments everywhere! I went to look at a Kia Sorento last Monday and REALLY REALLY liked it. The only problem was they wanted 22 grand for a used vehicle! Especially a Kia people! So, anyways, I'm not a stupid girl ya know so I looked up the suggested retail value on it. It was only 16,500! So, then I looked up the trade in value, IT WAS ONLY 11,000! So, I put in an offer of 17,000 and they wouldn't accept it saying that they had more than that in it! Whatever Cole, you are crazy and I am not! But, good things always happen on bad days, like for instance........After looking at this car I had to pick up some things at Shanes house and then put some gas in the 'ole cat before heading off to big 'ole Monroe County! So, while at the gas station I was wearing a dark red sundress and some sandles, because it was super warm outside and I was feeling summery. I was standing there pumping my gas when I heard this guy from across the parking lot yell, HEY! I looked up and he was looking at me, and he was like HEY! I kept looking at him trying to place where I knew him from when I couldn't and thus decided I didn't know him and had no interest in getting to know him. At the end of this conclusion he yells HEY, DO YOU GO TO CHURCH?? So, as I was standing there thinking "Great, now I am going to have to listen to this guy rant to me about why I should be going like I don't know why I should be going in the first place!" He comes closer, and I was like "No." So, he must not have heard me for I am a little soft spoken, and he was like "I SAID, Do you go to church??" So, being the smart elek I am and getting a little irritated I said, "I said NO!" Then to my amazement he just stopped and was like......

"Well, girl! You better be going to church every
Sunday and you had better praise God
everyday for your GOOD LOOKS!"

So, that was awesome! THANKS BUDDY! Believe it or not you made my day!

Last week was somewhat exciting for us at work. Missy got flowers from a guy she just wanted to have sexual relations with and developed into more. (For him anyways) So we are currently trying to scheme up ways to let him down gently. Krista is attracted to married men and has decided that 2 married men are WAYYY too much for her. And Allison isn't getting any, but she and her dad bought her a house (which I am WAYYY jealous of by the way). But, anyhow, I am trying to find her an eligible bachelor at school. If anyone has suggestions or is interested call, 304-646-0993. haha.........oh, yeah, she is 5'11" , brown hair, and great fun! Well, on my search I had been noticeing a guy at work. His name is Stinson (last name)! The detail I noticed about him was that he had been driving this huge van to work. I don't know what happened to his car, but I was intrigued by the van! Allison and I kept making jokes here and there about the van incident when we concluded that he didn't have game enough to get anyone into the van, but I still say he might be magical in bed (or wherever, van, it's all the same.) So, anyways, I told Allison that the next time he came into the bank to make a transaction or whatever I was going to tell him that Ali was interested in taking a ride off into the sunset. We had a good time about that when one day like a drink of water on a hot day, he came strolling in. I took one look at Ali and she knew that mischivious look on my face was for real! She jumps up and say, MEAGAN, If you do it I will sit on you until you can't breathe anymore! I am totally convinced that she would've done it had Krista not jumped in front of her like a Sumo and said, "GO AHEAD MEGGIE, DO IT!" So, I casually walked over there and said, "Stinson, we all really like your van. Allison said that she would really like to take a ride in it with you sometime!" OMG....It was hilarious! Of course, Stinson took it personally, but it's A OK since I am cute and all. He doesn't mind it when I make comments, but it was great!
(Nobody was hurt in the making of that story)

Well, that is about all for the moment, but I'll be Back as Arnold would say OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN!

Later babes!

mwah

And It's Over

What's over you say? It's all over, all the glitz and the glam are done and there is currently nothing to look forward to. Ashley's wedding is over and they were off on their honeymoon today. It was a very simple ceremony, but beautiful. Their family is huge! I think everyone was talking about how big the family is now. After the ceremony and everything I went out to eat with Kelly.........we went to Texas Steakhouse. It was goooooooooood. We always order the same thing........Cheese Fries (appetizer) salad with ranch dressing.....sweet tea......7 oz. sirloin with baked potato and b., s.c. ....and sometimes a drink. Last night we had a couple of amaretto sours. YUMM YUMM.....good times there. We bolognad around and shot the breeze and ended up not being able to eat our meals. But all is well, as Texas offers boxes for any leftovers. So she took her steak home to her dog, and mine will probably sit in the fridge until it isn't good anymore. lol, but whatever!

After the big wedding day and eating at Texas I came home to burn a cd, and then my brother and I took off to go bowling with my uncle and some of my friends that we all used to hang with. I had the best time with him, seriously. I haven't had that much fun in so long. My cousin Jon was in and we all just had a great time. They were trying to get their mac on with all the little girls and I was just making fun of them. I guess you just had to be there to get the funny out of their Usher wanna be dancing and all that. Everytime one of them would get a strike or a spare they would jump up and bump chests. It was hilarious until one time they did that and almost bumped into the girl that was in the next lane, I thought she was gonna cast a spell on them or something. She was all black and goth. That's fine and all, but not attractive I don't think.

Well, that's about all I have to talk about. It sucks saying goodbye to so many people you love though. I'm such a softie and cry all the time. I always try to hide it, but how do you hide tears. I'm pretty good at hiding any sobs or such, but my tears fall like crazy. I had to be discreet and hop into the bathroom and wipe them away real quick and then he said goodbye and i said goodbye and we were both out of there. I guess I do pretty good with it, but it always kills me to see someone else hurting. If I could, I believe I would take it for them. Anyhow, everything is fine and getting back to normal.....

"People say true friends must always hold hands,
but true friends don't need to hold hands because they know the other hand will always be there."

Love ya

Gotta Talk

I absolutely LOVE getting phone calls from my friends! If A friend would call me everyday I wouldn't care a bit!! So, I wonder why nobody wants to talk to me? Haha, for real though......My friend Chris just called me and he is all bummed out about his life. It sucks I guess at the moment anyways. But, I think it's crappy too. He is a veteran (when I think veteran I think old person, do you?) But he isn't old, but anyways, he doesn't qualify for any financial aid because some bologna about something or other. It seems like he could get something to help him better his life since he helped America better herself. Enough about that though!

I though once again that everyone around me was going to get fired. I would not recommend to anyone I know or came in contact with working as a teller at a bank. It is stressfull not knowing if you will or won't have a job the next day, week, or month. It's a good job as far as resume and all that, but it is such a stressfull job and requires lots of detail. Krista only has 25 more cents to play with before she loses her job. Two more of my tellers cashed fraudulent, forged checks the other day and it is still pending as to if they will be fired or not. IT SUCKS..........But, I said that if they all got fired but me I was asking for a transfer! I would like to go to another bank and do something else. That would be nice. I have even thought about looking for a whole other job period, but the hours and vacation are almost too much to pull away from.

My uncles wedding is Saturday! YAYYYYYYYY!!!!! Happy times, happy times! I will be singing "I never Knew Love" by Doug Stone. It's a really pretty song, but I've only practiced it a couple of times. I don't even know the words. I can't wait! My brother is coming in on Thursday night and I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIM........I can't hardly contain my excitement! I thought I was gonna get to see my dad too, but surprise surprise he isn't. He is going to have my little sister and he thinks it wouldn't be fun for her to come this way. Whatever, I guess I'll have to go and see him again this year like every other time before.

Well, my journey to find an apartment or a trailor of my own have turned up unsuccessful! I either can't afford it or it just isn't up to my standards. I mean, why shouldn't I have standards? Why shouldn't I be picky if I want to be?? I REFUSE to move into something that isn't nice and that I don't really like. I'm just not gonna do it. AND, I don't want a roommate! Roommates are devils and I know it from experience! NEVER AGAIN IS MY MOTTO ON THAT ONE! But, I am still looking, so if you are in the Princeton/Green Valley/ Athens area with an apartment or garage apartment or a trailor I would like to discuss options with you. Even better if anyone out there would like to donate something to me ex. money or whatever, NO PROBLEMS.........call me for my info;) But, I have tons more to say but I don't know exactly how I wanna say it so I'll leave it for tomorrow...........

night lambs as Mariah would say!

p.s. Mariah's new cd is pretty decent:) LOVE HER NO MATTER WHAT!

uh, mwah babes..........talk to ya later taters:)

Punishment should be the course of action for NEGLECT!

Sorry Sorry Sorry..........I know that I should be punished severly for the fashion of neglect that I inflict on you at least twice a month. My goal for the next month is to update you at least once a week in order for all my fans.....lol, to pursue my thoughts and progresses throughout the year.

Okay, so let's start off with this note......I AM NOT A HAPPY CAMPER........say it with me now.......MEGGIE IS NOT A HAPPY CAMPER. I believe this next week is perhaps going to be the worst week of my life, and let me explain to you the details. I get a call the other day....Friday to be exact, by none other than the head teller of the bank. Since I am the supervisor I have to handle a situation found by our proof dept. on one of my tellers made on Wednesday. She proceeds to explain to me that one of my teller.......(my favorite and a very good friend) has made a HUGE mistake to say the least and it will have to be corrected by the end of the day. What could this mistake be you say? Well, let me tell ya. A lady by the name of Jenny came in with a check for $500.00 and wanted to deposit $300.00 and get $200.00 back in cash. Well, the transaction was completed exact, but for one minor detail. AN EXTRA ZERO!!!!! Instead of depositing $300.00 it was $3000.00 and instead of $200.00 back it was ......yep.......you guessed it......$2000.00! Well, we thought that since this woman had lots of money from a phen phen settlement some years ago she wouldn't hesitate to give it back. WAS I EVER SO NAIVE!!! We tried calling her ALL day on Friday to no avail until say around 2 o'clock or so. I left her a message for her to call us back and she finally does. I didn't get to talk to her, Krista (who is the mistake maker) answered the phone and proceeds to talk to this woman in a not so nice tone. I think if I could have talked to her I may have been able to pursuade her that she needed to bring this money into the bank by the end of the day and all would have been well. Instead, I didn't get to talk to the woman and all was not well by the end of the day. Tomorrow is the deadline because I got an extension through the weekend. If by some miracle the woman came by this weekend and left the money in the night drop it will be a miracle, but probably not and i will have to fire my favoried employee tomorrow morning and be stressed to the max for the 1st of the month and until I get someone to take her place. Why must all good things come to an end. It just isn't fair and I don't really know how to handle the situation.

On a slightly lighter note I have been looking for the past couple weeks for a black peacoat. I would love to have one to go with this pink scarf that Shane's mom got for me, but I can't find one that I like. All the ones that I can find I don't like, or they just don't fit. What a waste of time, but I tirelessly look on the internet for good deals and can't find any to suit my tastes. I just need to get out of the house and get somewhere with some good shopping so that I can find some goooood deals.

Not much is going on with me. I started school back and I was totally bummed to find out that my favorite teacher bailed out on the class when she found out that she was pregnant. NOT FAIR AND I AM MAD ONCE AGAIN. I have decided that 2005 is going to be a VERY bad year and nothing is going to change my mind until things start to look up for me. So far I haven't had much luck with the new year and would gladly turn back the tables of time to relive the year 2004 all over again. (even though that one wasn't so particularly well either)

I have decided to buy me a house. Or move into an apartment. Not exactly of my own choice, but of this pressing matter that my uncle just doesn't need me anymore! Woe is me and he has found another......(sounds a little sick doesn't it??) lol, anyways, he is engaged to be married in April and I just refuse to move in with him and his new wife and their .........SIX OMG........SIX kids. Brady bunch central, except there is 5 girls and just 1 little man. I am totally excited for them though, they are so wonderful together it would just make you completely sick to see. It is like a fairy tail ending to a recurring nightmare. I am excited to be on my own, but I will have to say, I am going to miss living with my uncle and his 4 kids. Well, except for the cleaning up after and the washing of sheets and so on and so forth. I will miss the playing of video games, the watching of American Idol and Real World and the crying at night because Felena doesn't want to go to bed yet! HAH, four year olds are great (if you are tolerant and a kid lover, not liker, lover) So, anyways, I am psyched and will keep you up to detail on the progress.

What else..........where is this snow storm they were predicting for Southern West Virginia.......it missed up completely and all we got was a little rain and sleet. But, one thing is true.....my automatic car starter works like a dream and I couldn't live without it. I'm telling ya.....couldn't do it. You never know what you are missing until you are sitting in work dreading the cold car at the end of the day when all of a sudden you remember that you don't have to get into a cold car after all.......so what do you do, get out the keypad and click away while your car warms up and you drive off.

Well, I know there is more, but at the moment I don't know what it is........later to all and to all a good night!